Fall is so almost here. As summer makes her grand exit this week by drenching us with muggy rains and fierce winds, I can't help but get excited. Fall is my favorite time of year. My favorite day is fast approaching and even though I'm beyond happy to see the heat waves of mid year disapper, I'm also filled with sadness that my husband isn't here to enjoy the season with me. The night he got down on one knee and proposed, I never imagined that we'd be half a world apart and already married within a year.
Fall brings my favorite things to life; the smell of bonfires, crunchy leaves, comfort food, sweaters and the excitement that Christmas time is right around the corner. But this fall was also supposed to bring new favorite things, like our wedding on October 6th. Since I was little, I dreamed of a fall wedding. I dreamed of saying our vows at dusk in the midst of a million candles, of the sweet smell of spices drifting through the sanctuary and of crisp air as we danced the night away outside among family and friends. Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't trade my elopement with E for anything in the entire world, but I'm allowed to be a little sad that during our first fall together, we're actually apart.
Hearing my sweet husband's voice, though... I'll tell you. There is no other sound as sweet. When I get a phone call, or see him online during a rare occasion, my heart skips beats and I forget about the seasons of the year, the minutes of the day and the distance we have between us. It's as if for a brief moment, we're in the same place. I welcome so many parts of what fall brings, but maybe for the first time ever, I'm excited because it means it's one day closer to fall being over. Because once fall is over, winter can begin. And then it can end. And then spring can come, and go... and then my husband will be home.
I never knew what it was like to look forward to things just so they could hurry and pass, but then again, I've never lived this long with my heart an ocean away from me.
Goodbye, Summer. You won't be missed!
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