Lean not.

Proverbs 3:5-6 (New International Version, ©2010)

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways submit to him,
and he will make your paths straight.

It's so refreshing to know that we don't have all the answers and we cannot truly understand [insert whatever it is you're trying to understand here]. I get caught up so easily; I stress, I worry, I freak the heck out. Last night I was spending time with E & Lukas and I didn't even realize how thoroughly anxious I was until someone pointed out I was in a bad mood. I really wasn't; I was completely stressed. It happened the night before that when I was driving to Winston-Salem. I hate driving at night on the interstate and I hate turning left. I literally stressed myself to the point where I wanted to cry. And these are two examples, just two out of millions. And I always always forget that it is not my own understandings of the world I should be leaning on. Things don't make sense to me, things don't seem to be the way they should. And yet, instead of turning to Him, I turn to myself and I try to lean. Have you ever tried to lean on yourself? Trying it physically puts it into perspective. If you stand up and attempt to shift your body back onto your body, two things happen: 1. You look ridiculous and 2. You will fall down. And the same thing will happen to us emotionally and spiritually. You will fall down into the pits of despair, worry, stress and sadness unless you allow yourself to lean on Christ. But why is it so hard to remember this when things seem good? Why does it take stumbling around like an idiot to realize we actually need Him to lean on? It seems quite silly, but it happens all too often...

Cheers to leaning.